Valuable?

I
glance to my right
and
look to my left

suspicious
curious
and
content

mixed emotions
flowing through my
nervous system

those surrounding me
seem to not see
that I am here
that I am valuable
just as they are

I feel ignored and
left out in the cold
hugging myself for warmth
and dreaming of a day
when I feel valued by
my peers
friends
and
strangers

while others seems to see
the value in each other
I feel like I am just
someone there when time allows

I would call out
holler
or yell
to get their attention
but I don't want to seem selfish
self-centered
egotistic

so I quietly stand
in the background
hugging myself
imagining a day
when I am noticed and
valued
and loved...