Take Me Home

There is nature peaking through the cracks
sprouting out of the cracks in the sidewalks
shining through the gaps in the skyscrapers
and in the city of steal and glass
I am reminded of home
taken back to a place where
open space takes my breath away
and fills my soul with a contentment
I have known nowhere else

Home: the best four letter word I know
Blue skies: the background of my dreams
Flora and Fauna: a reminder of the beauty in the details
The horizon: my future laid out before me, undiscovered

Soul Portion

At some point
I glimpsed a portion of your soul
the part you tried to keep hidden
beneath the stoicism and
and constant deflection

You do not know this
I kept my reaction hidden
covered with a snort of laughter
at the joke hiding your truth

It was beautiful
this glimpse
this sliver of light in the
pressing darkness of life
like a gemstone hidden
amongst the stones
deep in a cavernous hole

I never knew how to ask you
why you kept up the facade
never knowing when
the right time would be

Now I cannot ask you
you are gone your soul
gone and buried
and my whole being feels the loss

You were the brightest part of my life
the brightest part of each of my days
I miss you
more than any language can express

I will love you continuously
through each day I face alone
through moments when I want to
turn to you and bring you in on the memory

It will always be you

New Leaf

At the moment of our meeting
My soul unlocked for you
I was weary of love
There are scars all over me
Heart and soul
Left from lovers who
Have come and gone
With little regard for me
Against my better judgement
I opened my ribs
And let you settle in
The space made just for you
It did not hurt like all the others
A perfect puzzle piece
That my soul had been missing
The only way I can let you go now
Is if you break me open
And spill my insides
The contents of my heart
Lying scattered and broken

Please don't break me
Despite my solid exterior
I am as fragile as a new leaf

Tiny Mind

It is in those moments
That space in time
When I truly open my eyes
That I see all the things
I think I know are just
Simply the surface

I know so little
And I am so small
The universe and time
Confound my little mind

In the end all I need to know
Is You love me
Inspite of my arrogance
My pride, stumbling, and
Unfounded belief
That I truly know it all

You who created all
You who knows all
Love me. Us. Your creation.

Hold on Heart

You have held my heart for years
Of that I have been unaware

I had an epiphany the other day
I want you in my world
But time and distance
Are fighting me, hard

Every day, I wish you were here
Every day, you are not

I try to keep in touch
But each attempt is thwarted
You say you are busy
But I am starting to see the truth

Every day, I wish you were here
Every day, you are not

Every night, you fill my mind
And sleep evades me
I go back to when I last saw you
When you held me close

Every day, I wish you were here
Every day, you are not

I am trying to move on
But the hold you have on my heart
Is vice-like, strong, years deep
Maybe one day, but not today

You have held my heart for years
Of this I am now aware

Now I hold a space for someone else
In the space where you used to be
You are now a distant memory
Someone who flashes across my screen

I have let go of you
You held my heart for years
And now I am aware of only the future

Wrapped Up

You had me all wrapped up in you
For those few moments I felt I mattered
Them time and space separated
And I realized I was just a distraction