Flying By

Blur by Me

I have been feeling like this picture for the last year. I feel like everything is flying past me at a million miles an hour. I have one more year of college and then I have to enter the working world. I am so afraid that I won't find a job, that I will not be able to live on my own and pay for all the things that I need. I keep thinking of how I  am going to help myself, but then I am reminded again and again that God knows the plans for my life and that all I need to do is trust him. I am such a self-reliant person that sometimes I forget that God is there for me to lean on when things seem like too much. I hope and pray that I will continue to learn from and lean on God in the good and bad times. 

Happy Birthday Friend

Here is a collage/painting I made for one of my friends 22nd birthday. 

Collages I've made...

Jones Bunny?

Here is a collage that I made out of Jones soda labels. and the bunny ears that I bought with Courtney D., Michelle C., and Taylor O. and wore to Allyssa's 22nd Birthday party tonight!

in places of despair... by =OsmanBalkan

saw this and knew I had to share... <3


in places of despair.. by =OsmanBalkan on deviantART

I suppose shining could be good....

In a few days I head out for my spring break and I am so excited. I get to go home to Colorado and see my family and friends back there. I have the chance to get away from school and chill out near the mountains which Nebraska... well lacks. Tomorrow night I am going to a concert that I am super thrilled about. I get to see one of my favorite bands, Project 86. While some people I know wouldn't understand how their music inspires me it does. Andrew Schwab is the lead singer and lyricist of the band. The words he writes speak to me. I can only say that God has blessed him with the ability to create stories in a short song.

I only hope that someday someone will say the same about me. I hope that people see God in my life and not just the things I have accomplished. I don't want my history to be about what I have done for myself, I want it to be about what I have done for others. Or more along the lines of what God has done through me for others. I hope to make an impact on the world that lasts longer than the world. I pray everyday that the life I lead will lead others in the direction of the One that they need the most. The One that I have found comfort, peace, patience, and joy in. May God shine through me!

Too Much?

Is it too much to ask

That he tell me I'm beautiful
That they treat me like a human
That I know love... someday
That the world learns compassion
That the world looks past themselves
That God come soon
That I didn't feel unwanted
That I was a better friend
That things would be simpler
That the little things would feed my joy
That I could truly be comfortable in my own skin
That... well the list goes on
But stopping there will work for now...

Abandon Kansas - Close Your Eyes

A little something for all the English nerds!

Stick this in your ear - The listener

It is just not fair coma how you can apostrophe T 
process this so dash called savuafair coma in the air exclamation 
trying to be compatible so hyphen to dash speak semi colon 
with my quotation quotables colon 
you love who you are period I love who I am period 
but when it comes to liking parentheses yourself 
you have a question mark period new paragraph 
I have a solution I have a fresh point dash of hyphen view period
I apostrophe M punctuating boundaries ampersand all caps 
cannot speak to you quotations mentally underscore evidently 
ellipses end line tab it is so hard to re dash invent myself 
to a platform that you can italics understand period 
that you can hold in your hand 
coma why question mark am I the quote 
infection that keeps your head dash aching period 
parentheses if you would listen to the synergies of my thoughts 
it would keep your quote foundation from shaking exclamation 
so all caps bold this is for your ear coma for your head coma and for your thoughts 
just cram it in far and you will see dot dot dot.

Check out more here: http://listener.bandcamp.com/album/not-waving-drowning

Listener (Dan Smith) - Seatbelt Hands (at Second Saturday 4/11/09)

Listener - You Have Never Lived Because You Have Never Died (Cornerstone 09)

I keep hoping that motivation will sneak up behind me and somehow sneak into my brain or simply make itself known. Never before have a felt this unmotivated. It seems like I want to do nothing but read anything unrelated to school. I even prefer to organize my music above doing homework. I am kind of an organization freak, but that is still a bit far for me. I would rather watch Def Poetry Jams on youtube.com than even think about what I have to do for classes tomorrow and the next day.

So, if anyone finds my motivation walking around, sneaking around, can you send it my way so that I can finally get something done? Thanks a bunch! Much love!