Still Love

I keep forgetting that
you won't be walking
in through the front door
any time soon
that I will never
look upon your face
ever again
and that we will never
walk through the park
hand in hand again

But every night I am
reminded of your absence
your side of the bed is
cold and empty
and still smells like you
I cry myself to sleep
continually because I miss you so

Why did you have to go
especially the way you did
I wish you weren't such a hero
selfishly

I wish you were still here

I still love you and always will

Shake & Shiver

my dreams curl inside me

folding in on themselves
knowing they may never
fully breath in life
 shake and shiver

they stop and start

every day they try to

breathe in new life

but life will not let them live

shake and shiver

i want to break them free

and give them life

but the fear inside

beats them down

shake and shiver

maybe tomorrow

when i wake up

the fear will be conquered

and my dreams will fly free

shake and shiver

You Are To Me

You are

Cold ice cream on a summer day

You are

A plunge into a an icy river

You are

Curling up in front of a blazing fire

You are

Like holding hands for the first time

You are

Greater than a first kiss

You are

A Colorado sunset and sunrise

You are

The cause of butterflies in my belly

You are

My favorite movie five times over

You are

Stolen glances on a first date

You are

Laughter and smiles and life

You are to me…

Home

Home Like No Other

I never suspected that you would

Carve your mark into my heart

But I have found that you

Are irrevocably part of me

You are written on my soul

Always pulling me back

To where I know I belong

No matter how long I am away

You always feel like home

Every time I step in close

You fold me into your open arms

And you are where I will

Always feel at home

Soldiers of Emotion

We were like soldiers

Trained to not show emotions

“Hold it all in,” they said

“Don’t ever let them see you weak”

So we hold it in

Never once showing how we truly feel

Letting the fear, anger, pain

Tear our insides to pieces

As blood pools in our chests

Pain growing every day

We grasp tightly to their instructions

Too afraid to let our feelings out

Until one day we start bleeding out

Blood and emotions mixing together

Creating a painful masterpiece

A painting of our sorrows

We will be soldiers ‘till the end

Even if it kills us…