Light of My Heart

You were part mine and part his

Whoever he was

It takes a lot out of me to think

About both of you

You because I miss you and

I find it hard not to hate him

For all the damage he did before

He left me to die

I miss you more than I can say

But I only have myself to blame

Because it was I who chose to take

What was not mine and

Now I have to live with that fact

And miss you every second  of every day

I imagine that you would be

Two years old today

My beautiful daughter

With curly blond hair like

I had when I was young

You giggling at my silly antics

Me laughing at your silly faces

You starting to speak sentences

Oh how my heart breaks

Know that I am sorry

For the choice of my youth

That took your beauty and joy

From my life and this world

Meet Me

Meet me on the hill

Where the widows go to grieve

So we can add a shine

To the sorrow

We will hold their hands

And hold them close

Share our love and

Try to mend their broken hearts

Meet me near the old oak tree

Where the orphans play

So we can add a smile

To their sad faces

We will hug away their sorrow

And play tag among the wheat

Share our love and

Try to mend their broken hearts

Meet me on the corner

Where young lovers meet

So we can soak up

The love that saturates the place

We will teach the lovers what we know

And when it ends hold them close

Share our love and

Try to mend their broken hearts

Meet me in the church yard

Where we first met

So we can make our promises

To be each other’s forever

We will share our promises

And share the day with loved ones

Share our love and

Try to mend their broken hearts

Still Love

I keep forgetting that
you won't be walking
in through the front door
any time soon
that I will never
look upon your face
ever again
and that we will never
walk through the park
hand in hand again

But every night I am
reminded of your absence
your side of the bed is
cold and empty
and still smells like you
I cry myself to sleep
continually because I miss you so

Why did you have to go
especially the way you did
I wish you weren't such a hero
selfishly

I wish you were still here

I still love you and always will

Shake & Shiver

my dreams curl inside me

folding in on themselves
knowing they may never
fully breath in life
 shake and shiver

they stop and start

every day they try to

breathe in new life

but life will not let them live

shake and shiver

i want to break them free

and give them life

but the fear inside

beats them down

shake and shiver

maybe tomorrow

when i wake up

the fear will be conquered

and my dreams will fly free

shake and shiver

You Are To Me

You are

Cold ice cream on a summer day

You are

A plunge into a an icy river

You are

Curling up in front of a blazing fire

You are

Like holding hands for the first time

You are

Greater than a first kiss

You are

A Colorado sunset and sunrise

You are

The cause of butterflies in my belly

You are

My favorite movie five times over

You are

Stolen glances on a first date

You are

Laughter and smiles and life

You are to me…

Home

Home Like No Other

I never suspected that you would

Carve your mark into my heart

But I have found that you

Are irrevocably part of me

You are written on my soul

Always pulling me back

To where I know I belong

No matter how long I am away

You always feel like home

Every time I step in close

You fold me into your open arms

And you are where I will

Always feel at home

Soldiers of Emotion

We were like soldiers

Trained to not show emotions

“Hold it all in,” they said

“Don’t ever let them see you weak”

So we hold it in

Never once showing how we truly feel

Letting the fear, anger, pain

Tear our insides to pieces

As blood pools in our chests

Pain growing every day

We grasp tightly to their instructions

Too afraid to let our feelings out

Until one day we start bleeding out

Blood and emotions mixing together

Creating a painful masterpiece

A painting of our sorrows

We will be soldiers ‘till the end

Even if it kills us…

10 Things I know to be true:

1. Love is the one superpower we all posses.
2. There is beauty all around us, in the small and big things. It is up to us to chose to see it.
3. Laughter is the best medicine, even if you are the only one laughing. 
4. Chocolate chip cookies are good anytime--day or night.
5. No one is perfect. We all have secrets.
6. Reality TV is the most ironic thing on television. 
7. Family and friends both keep us sane and drive us insane.
8. Words aren't always necessary.
9. You are not your past or your last bad choice; you are your next choice and your future.
10. Patience is a virtue, but sometimes you lose track of it. 

Cold Winter Days

Chilly Winter Days

Crackpot Heart

I walked away with a broken heart

never once questioning the how

how you found a way to walk away

how I never saw it coming

how little it actually meant

when you told me you were sorry

my heart cracked

leaving me feeling like a broken pot

not able to hold the flood in

I cried over you for days

now I don’t know why

it’s not like you deserved such

outpouring of emotions

now my heart is mended

ready for love again

with you no longer

taking up residence in my mind

stealing room that is not yours to have

Finally Real

This is the slow down

The heart break

And the awakening

This is me learning

Seeing what is real

For the first time

Riding Home

We rode through the desert

hands clutching the reins

trying to force to horses

to go where we wanted

Our hearts beat rapidly in our chests

from constant fear of the

invisible enemy following close behind

chasing us to take our lives

Every ten seconds looking back

trying to catch a glimpse

but failing every single time

the fear building in our chests

In between backwards glances

we scan the horizon

trying to catch a glimpse of life ahead

in this never-ending desert

In stolen glances we ask each other

will we live or will we die

will we make it home

or will we die before we reach there

Then in the distance we see a light...